Disillusioned
I think that word, currently defines my mindset right now. I don’t mean in general, I clearly have some exciting, and life changing plans for the next year, but within a specific area. I’ve spent the last year, working on, with and for people who collectively haven’t delievered. That first line, in itself appears to shift ALL the blame onto everyone but my shoulders, and that wouldn’t be fair. I hold my hands up high to times in the last year when i’ve been too busy, or somewhat pre-occupied to fulfill my end of bargains and so forth. Yet there a comes a time, when enough is enough, when maybe a change is what you need… Right now, I am in limbo with, hence the blog post, but I really am losing my tether with certain things of late. Maybe it’s my midlife crisis, but frankly I don’t think so. Ironically, it’s almost a struggle to remain vague, but allow me to put it like this; unity is a powerful thing, and without you DO NOT succeed.
Change? People don’t like change, most people… That’s clearly evident, with recent examples to hand, but me, do I like change? I am surely open to the prospect of change, yes, but starting over is a whole new ball game. If a change is right for me, what next? It’d be a shame to quit being apart of something you believe in, so do you seek new avenues there-after? Quite possibly, yes. So many thinks to ponder, which all returns to disillusionment.
…Hmmm…
September 26th, 2006 at 9:46 pm
oh oh problemito uuuhhh ???!!
“Maybe it’s my midlife crisis”
==}I hope you will live more than 2x 22 yrs old lol
We all have our bad days, with dark thoughts, clouds in our heads…Luckily it’s just periods…Strangely, the majority of these depressive states (dunno if my sentence is english, french or both but errr…lol)come in autumn…lol yes you’re a part of human beings, you’re a human, just a man who is trying to live the better he can…It’s the same thing for me…In the female version of course (should I precise : “blond female version” ?ahem cruel life…lol jk)
When you write “People don’t like change, most people… ” could you explain ?…What is the meaning of “change” for you ?…I don’t think people don’t like change, sometimes they could be afraid because they think that if they do any little change in their own life, they couldn’t come back or erase it…Like a point of no return…I don’t believe in “all black” or “all white” (errr…it’s a french expression, dunno if it’s understandable in english…French like metaphoras…Not sure it’s the same in english..lol Poor Steve, I hope you will understand…)in life…There is many shades between these extremes !!!…All that “bla-bla” because it’s the first time I understand first, the most part of your post (roflmao!!!…and what ?tsss tsss)and more than this, I feel close to you with the feelings you describe…
“Courage! C’est un mauvais moment à passer !”
= }”Take care” ( a little bit shorter in english, indeed…loool)