In life, there’s so many things you take for granted, more things than you ever realize. Hence the expression, you don’t know what you had, til it’s gone. Sure enough, I have many instances I could refer to right now, where this applies – for example, the fact, in theory I have no home… 
Yet today, I realize my email is playing all kinds of tricks on me. 
Firstly I apologize to the people who haven’t received my email – for once I have a valid excuse for not getting a reply out to as soon as i’d of liked – believe me I did do it. 
I just spent about 45 mins tonight cleaning up my email software. I had to start afresh, and subsequently lost mail, and alsorts – One Big mess. Email itself, isn’t a big deal, I guess, yet like the saying goes, you sure do realize how much you depend on things, without really giving them much thought – when they cease being there for you. So I guess in passing, i suggest, although it might sound corny, you take this second to sit back, and try and appreciate all the things that make up your life… 
March 14th, 2005 at 12:09 pm
Amen! I truly appreciate every single thing and each person I know so believe me when I say it ain’t always a good thing. Ah I’ve got so much to learn….I actually went to Africa, twice and ‘lived like them’ which was very cool
ever since I came back (woah…long time ago) I’ve been appreciating everything lolz anyways, hope ya e-mail is fine now! errrr…I’d hate it if I lost all my e-mails 
I’d cry like a lil baby 
WOW! Is that what you guys call a….stamp? lolz
March 14th, 2005 at 3:07 pm
Yeah, I can imagine going to Africa, really would put things into perspective, I bet that was a very moving experience!
Loving Nas’ – Just A Moment, heard it on a mixtape, but found it on the iTunes Music Store, well worth the 79pence.
A Stamp? Well there’s a couple of different meanings for Stamp. One is the stamp, which pays for postage on a letter – you affix it to the letter.
The other, is when you errr ‘stomp’ on something with your foot. Stamp derives from ‘stomp’.. If that makes sense?!
March 14th, 2005 at 4:44 pm
ROFL!!! bless ya, boys would die to explain anything am I right? I remember a guy who used to explain TV ads for me without a reason…HAHA! god, I had to turn off the TV whenever he came to visit
anyways, that stamp comment was sarcasm, I was implying that I’ve never seen one before 
actually last time I saw one, I was about 9years old I think 
*never wrote a letter before* 
March 14th, 2005 at 4:50 pm
LOL, well I know you’re kinda blonde, i Just assumed you had no idea. Hell I still believe you don’t – you just playin’ tha…
March 24th, 2005 at 11:37 pm
“and try and appreciate all the things that make up your life…” I guess we’ve felt the same way in a way, even though mine has been scarier. Don’t think I’ve told you this, but for a month -almost two-, I’ve been living with the “guess” of doctors thinking I could have Leukemia. Oh yea! Can you believe that? Every second that passes by, feels like 10 years altogether. But something good has come out of it and I’ve actually started to live!! I am doing all things I always wanted to do and I am working hard on all my dreams and already, got a wonderful result!! Hollywood wants my work, babyyyy!! Oooh yea. So anyways, life has been heavier on my shoulders and I will get a clear answer, tomorrow. Finally after more tests, they will tell me if it’s just anemia or worse…the Leu word. UGH!! TORTURE I tell ya!! Soul aching more than the body! What am I talking about now? Oh yea, I appreciate the little things in life, more than I ever did!!!!!! Little things matter more than one could imagine…until those are almost taken away…. Ay. *sigh*
March 25th, 2005 at 2:09 am
Are you serious? Damn, yes it kinda makes my example seem quite miniscule by comparison. I’m pleased to hear about your work – what is it exactly? As for the doc – well i’ll pray for you too.
Let me know how it goes, won’t you?
March 25th, 2005 at 4:18 am
“well i’ll pray for you too.”
Oh maaaaaaan!! You are so sweet and kind!! Thank you!! That means a lot to me. Although at this point, I’ve become pretty unreligious. Coming from me, that is kinda scary but hey… Almost two hours after I typed that up there, I was rushed to the emergency room. 
Yea… I found out I got “something else” too, besides anemia (which I found out about, last week). I won’t say what this is, but it was shocking. I don’t think I had ever cried the way I did before decided to go the the emergency room. Man… 
I LOOK 900% healthy but it seems my body is a bit fecked from inside and not in the good way. 
Such things keep happening to me, but hey, I won’t complain. What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger. Bring it on!! Although I gotta admit, I am a bit frustrated such annoying things happen to my body. I realize I should treat my body, better. Take care of my damn self, too. Oh well. Tis life: you are born, you suffer, you have some happy days, you suffer more and then you die. 
Let’s see what the doc says later on. Wow. If one more thing is added to all this, I’mma break a plate. LOL! 
Ok, I’ll shut up now. Gonna go check emails and relax. I’m cool. And yes, I will let you know what the results are. 
Thanks for caring. x
March 26th, 2005 at 5:14 pm
Break a plate? Haha.
My email is pretty whack girl, I have to check accounts manually now, which is really frustrating me. If you email me directly, can you do it to neyouk@gmail.com – that account I don’t have to check periodically. :rolleyes:
March 27th, 2005 at 12:33 am
I emailed you last night to your neyo_2k@yahoo.co.uk account. Np, I have a copy of it saved, so I will forward you it, now.
I got good news. 
I’ll write you more though. That was just a short message. 
Thanks for being there for moi, buddy. 
x